High school… She was my best friend. My only friend. Lu. She held a towel to my nose. Besides the vomiting, broken capillaries were another side effect from snorting the pills. Lu’s idea. Initially the pills were made for swallowing. This way you’d still appear normal but you’d never lose your true self. You’d never […]

High school “Breathe,” she told me. She could tell I was nervous. I’d never done this before. She grabbed my hand to try to ease my anxiety. I could feel the hairs on my skin rise as I lie back on the bed. The firm mattress turned into mush. I could no longer feel my […]

Present-day I placed my hand over my nose. Wasn’t sure if the foul odor I was smelling was coming from the day old vomit or the dried brain fragments that covered the front of my shirt. Possibly both. Either way, I smelled like shit. Looked like shit. I’d spent my night hiding in a tree. […]

Junior High My mouth began to salivate as I held my hands over my stomach. Tried to block numerous fists and shoes from making contact with me. I was getting hit and kicked so hard I thought my breakfast was going to come up through my esophagus. It was common for my peers to taunt […]

Anxiety. I could feel the blood rush through my body. My heart beat like a crazed beast imprisoned by my rib cage. Palms sweaty and face moist. I knelt down, hands touching my knees as I tried to catch my breath. I’d been running through the woods for some time now. Darkness was falling and […]